Pretty long time since I was online here last, like actually online and present. So, thought I'd kinda say hello and such again, not sure how present I will be but I bought premium for a few months, mostly because I was so terribly curious about all the new stuff. xD
The meeting place seem awesome, but is it possible to turn the camera around other than turning the character as well, I like getting a side view of things sometimes as well?
Honestly it can be pretty fun on A-chat if one is in the right mindset, I generally don't actually masturbate to an orgasm when rooming I rather let my mind wander, chat, role-play and such since it gives me so much mental stimuli. Well my body tends to answer but getting all wet, hot and bothered can be nice enough even though I sometimes just wish that guy was actually there and would just fuck my brains out irl so to speak hahaha. xD
I don't particularly like the term shemale, but what can one do when it so settled in the world of porn. :/
Anyways, it's kinda funny to me how the avatar cums like a dude, I mean, when on hormones ones doesn't cum like that at all. It's more of just a clear liquid for me at least and it starts to come when I get really tuned on and might dribble a bit more when orgasming. xD
In porn though "shemales" do cum like dudes do but they're usually off of hormones a while before that or have even taken a testosterone shot just for that very thing.
Anyways, it would have been nice to have that as a setting or something.
Actually Achat has kind of helped me out, in the beginning I hadn't actually started my transition and was struggling a lot in life, this became something of a haven, a place where I could actually be the me that was yearning to be set free, that was crushed by the norms and expectations of society. It has helped me to initially express and all the aspects of myself that was suppressed, find it and give it a chance to come out and flourish.
I can honestly say that Achat has been part of helping me express myself without being afraid, find my sexuality and probably many aspects of myself that I just couldn't let out because of expectations laid upon me from all around.
Living by rejecting ones self is hard, depressing and led me to suicidal thoughts and paralyzing panic attacks so I really needed somewhere to escape, a place to be me even if I then had to be ripped back to the dark reality that I was living in then.
I did eventually reach a point in life where I was really starting to break down, I had to make a choice or things would probably have ended pretty bad even though I thought I'd be able to live out my days as some kind of empty shell, but honestly... who was I kidding? It was just lame denial born from fear and self rejection.
So even if I was terribly afraid I did take the bull by its horns and take my first tentative steps in the right direction. The journey has been long and hard, but not as hard as I initially thought and one could say that everything turned out well in the end. To be honest, the like, mental image of my goal that spending time on Achat has helped me with have helped me strive in a purposeful manner through all this even if the final goal couldn't actually be seen. I've changed a lot during all of this time but not at the core.
Now I live my life simply as a woman, nothing special really but the peace I feel inside me and the positive outlook I have on life is almost euphoric compared to the depressed state that was very close to complete darkness I was in a few years back. I'm a much more happy, outgoing, talkative and energetic person nowadays.
I'm looking forward to my gender reassignment surgery in a few months and it will be so freeing even it will be a small hell to go through with all the pain and after care. At least there have been A LOT of progress in that field compared to what Lili in The Danish Girl had to go through.
So, Achat can actually help LGBTQ+ people that are struggling and that is actually pretty amazing.
Anyways, hi there everyone!
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