Hi ALL *HUGS* As unexpected as my arrival was to this special little world so it seems will be my departure. I prefer to call it a “hiatus” instead of “goodbye”. My two worlds collided this past weekend, shaking my reality forcing me to see just how drawn in I have become to one world and how much I have neglected the other. Time for me to step back, re-examine my priorities and make some difficult decisions.It has been a difficult weekend for me. I saw it coming but remained in denial, thinking I could continue “walking between worlds” living in both as some others do. But I have discovered that I cannot. I can no longer keep up with this pace, my RL just too demanding and too many are paying the price of my greed. As in all worlds, all strengths are weaknesses. Some are just more difficult to see than others. I am no exception.How quickly one year has passed, so much has happened, both here and there. Discovering this new world; with new friends & lovers, real feelings and addictions. While in my RL; a wedding this May followed at some point with an “anxious” relocation. A new life in a new place, leaving all that I know behind me. The moment I said “YES” to Tristan I relinquished some control. I decided to share. Can’t have it both ways.No long sad goodbyes, that is not how I feel. Just as in our RL we do not get to choose how long we live, when we die. Those are not for us to decide, we are only responsible for how we decide to LIVE each day and how we treat others. Whether my time here is considered short or long is not important. It is what I take with me from this world, this experience that matters. I thank you all for a truly mind altering experience, one I have so much enjoyed and could never forget. Some special souls in here have touched me, helped me become the person I want to be.To all my friends and my special lovers, you know who you are….. THANK YOU for sharing. Your time, your thoughts, feelings and most of all your spirit. Thank you for opening my mind to “other” possibilities. Other realities. It is NOT the cover of the book that is capable of touching your heart, it is the pages, the LIFE within and story it contains. It is no different for US whether in RL or here. It is not the flesh or the look of our avatar but what lies inside. A lesson well learned in here.OK, before I sign-off temporarily …. I have some confessions and admissions to make. First the confessions:1) YES, I had ALT accounts. TWO to be exact, other than me2) NO, I NEVER played with them in public or tried to deceive others • One I inherited from a friend, MALIAH, who found this place first but soon lost interest and that is how I became Kaitlyn1989, with a SEX and NAME change. • The other is a MALE created by me for my Lady Andrea. His name I will NOT share, that is up to Andrea, but we do NOT take him out in public. Our intent never to deceive others, only to please each other.Next a few regrets:1) I regret hurting anyone. Yet I know I have hurt at least ONE, maybe two. Maybe more. But to AEEM, who I know I let down and hurt, I say sorry one last time. My actions unintentional and naïve but that does not excuse me of the pain I caused you.2) I regret not finishing my Erotic Story, not only for myself but for promises left empty to both Andrea and Brandybee3) And I owe Jean, Sarah and Lover an apology. I am sorry. The very strength that prompts me to say YES, to get involved and contribute. Is also the very weakness that prevents me from saying NO, and getting in over my head.Lastly, an admission: Although I am taking a hiatus from this world to focus on my RL, I am taking one with me. Not stealing her, she is staying, but I will be keeping her close. I can’t leave her behind, my heart just can’t do without. That is my Lady Andrea.*HUGS n KISSES* ALL, I wish you the best in all of your worlds. No goodbye, just a see ya later, I always like to keep my options open. Kaitlyn
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