Are you….Soldier, Hero, Maiden, Princess.. A fun muse.

This is one of the most challenging topic here. I agree with Kait that each individual speak for yourself and that we can't fit into the same pattern. But still, I think this is not meant as a discussion or conversation, more likely as a way to say something about ourselves or how we see ourselves, at least in some funny and entertaining way.

The manner in which Jensen told the story and the way he opened up and exposed part of himself here , I think, is very brave. The story is very touching and I admire you Jensen for all of that.

Finding words to describe myself I thought is easy but now trying to explain or describe who am I in English is difficult, but anyway I'll try.
 
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Name: Jean
Who am I: Dreamer
Who is my best match?: Doer
Who do I want to be?: None other than I am, Dreamer
Who do I usually pursue?: Quitters = It was really hard for me to admit this. Lol..
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It may sound pathetic but I am incorrigible dreamer and idealist, especially when it comes to love and emotions. I believe that I have always known exactly who I am and what I want out of my life. Being a independent from a very young age (due life's circumstances) helped me to get to know real world, myself and to understand who I am and how to get what I wanted out of my life.

I used to be often confused, suspicious in terms of my beliefs, self-doubts and fears and I was disappointed countless times. Due the time things had changed. My growing up, independence and ability to handle being away from home for long periods of time taught me a lot about the real world, reality, people and about life generally . I’ve made mistakes, I fell many times but I’ve learned how to raised myself from the ashes and failures. And I’ve never stopped believing in my dreams, people or stopped believing in love. I can't help myself – I am a romantic dreamer, wide eye believer who try to reach the stars and keep my hopes up the entire road to them.
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My best match is a Doer. He has (as people say)  strong power of observation and a keen sense when dealing with other people. He can be very perceptive, witty and clever. He has a natural ability of convincing others of his point of view. Doer is an energetic person who live completely in the here and now and makes spontaneous decisions from one moment to the next. He loves being together with other people and he is sensuous, lively and amusing conversationalist. It is no problem for him to be the effervescent centre of attention anywhere and he is generous. He don’t brood over consequences for long, he quickly grasps all the relevant facts, make a pragmatic decision and enforce that decision vigorously. Should a decision later turn out to have been wrong, he can always makes new plans. Doer has charisma, eloquence, charm and persuasiveness. By nature, he is much too open and direct to negatively outfox someone. Any intrigue is foreign and unappealing to him. I usually – better to say all my life looking for a Doer, but still at the end turns out he is a Quitter.
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Well, I guess we all know personality of quitters but sometimes they look like and act just like Doers. And this is probably the reason why I always get stuck with those who gave up – Quitters.

Last time I thought I’ve found my perfect match, my Doer. It seemed like my dream, my longings and desires led me directly to that man. We fell into a robust, intense, passionate love. It last 4 years, with almost unabated passion. We were filled and overwhelmed with love. At that time it seemed that we both were motivated to achieve incredible things in various spheres of our lives. After, I find out that he has been cheating on me, just at the moment we decided to merge our lives permanently.

Didn’t hurt me what he starts an affair with another woman as much as the fact that he gave up on us. We tried to overcome that but it didn’t work out. I’ve never blamed him too much. Guess he did the best he could and I do believe nothing really worthwhile in this world, like love, can’t be forced. Anyway we are still close friends and I’m grateful for it.
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One of my beliefs, I’ve recognized through my life experiences as a great truth, is that loves comes and goes constantly, we need to know how to forgive and let them go of our present when they must pass. Every love, the one that was, the one that is, the one that will be deserves to be free and released. Only in this way gets the true meaning and makes us happy even when remains only as a part of our memories. We shouldn’t forget the beauty of moments in which we enjoyed or all amazing feelings we’ve felt. Traces will remain forever, they are valuable and precious, and it is valid for any kind of love in our lives. Instead of bitterness and regrets we should let these traces become a walk in the beautiful memories that will inspire us in everything. And after all, these traces partly make us the kind of person we are today or kind of person we will become tomorrow. I am infinitely grateful for every love I've received and I was able to give.

Cheers!

Thank you Jensen,
This was like some kind of relief