Dancing Amongst The Clouds

[Amethyst]

I was stood in the kitchen when Pheonix came in and took hold of me pushing my back against the wall

Pheonix raised his arms to the side of me , one hand at each side of my head and leaned close to me , “Ame you married me huh?” his tone was straight talking and his eyes cool .

I looked into his eyes , “Yes ? what's this about?”

“Hmm do you remember those vows Ame? huh?”, he leaned closer

I was starting to feel vulnerable  and naked and shifted a little, “YES! I do Pheonix!”, he pushed me back against the wall firmly but gently

“So you remember the vow ' to honour and OBEY' then Ame?”, his questioning of me was calm, I nodded a yes as he continued, “oh really? and would you like to keep the horses Ame?”

“YES! , You know I do, Pheonix what are you doing? where is this going?” , I attempted to move again and I was about to snap at him getting annoyed at my entrapment . He put two fingers to my lips , ” SHHHHhhhhhh AME .. Listen!” , I looked into his eyes my temper starting to replace the need for him. “What did you NOT do Ame?, Hmmm? ….he paused ….. “You didn't OBEY did you?”  .

It Dawned on me he was talking about the night with Onyx and my refusal to go with him, the first time in our relationship I had ever refused to do as he asked, I pulled at his hand removing his fingers from my lips, “What the fuck Pheonix! WHERE is this going?”

“I need to teach you Ame what obey means huh?… look what happens when you don't obey” , He paused looking down at my naked body,  “do you think I would ever put you in danger Ame?”

I thought for a moment and I knew he would never put me in danger , in fact it would be the total opposite, he was more than protective of me, so much so he had almost got into fights over it. I suddenly felt ashamed and wanted my towel back, my emotions were now mixed with love and fear as I felt intimidated and extremely bare. I Whispered “no Phen I know you wouldn't” .

He smiled at me, he was controlled, calm “We will keep the horses Ame, Right after I have taught you what happens when you don't 'OBEY' me, Ok?”

I was stunned, in all the years of us fighting our own demons I had never seen this in Pheonix before, this mood and this change made me feel like I didn't know my husband at all , but then I had NEVER disobeyed him before. Phens raised voice snapped me from my thoughts making me jump.

“I SAID OK!! ”

I started to panic unsure of what was happening and felt my heart starting to pound against my chest, I felt like a Rabbit trapped in headlights and I froze. 

Pheonix gripped my shoulders and spun me around , I was now facing the wall and he was resting his chest against my back, he lowered his mouth to my ear, “I love you Ame, I need you to know this , he paused ,   “I'm doing this for us, you will never go against those vows again, you are MY wife”.

As I heard him sliding his belt from his jeans I started to push against him , “NO PHEONIX PLEASE , WHAT ARE YOU DOING?”, Phen gripped my head and pushed it against the wall , holding me firmly in place, it wasn't painful but I couldn't move my face which was now resting against the wall.

Without warning I felt pain shoot up my body as I cried out, Phens belt made contact with my ass, Pain soared through me, my skin felt as if it was on fire , Again & Again his belt made contact first with one cheek and then the other, my legs were trembling as I began to cry . Pleading with my husband to stop. I didn't count the times he hit me with his belt, my head was hazy, my emotions mixed. I wanted his arms around me, loving me , nursing me , telling me it was all going to be ok. Then as sudden as the blows started to reign down on me , they stopped.  Tears slid down my face  as I fought to hold back the sobs. Pheonix stroked at my hair softly “Sshhhh baby .. it's all ok now, I did this for us, you'll see” , The warmth of his hand rubbed softly at my burning skin as his mouth found mine , kissing me , his mouth gentle , loving.

There was no doubt about my love for this man as I responded to him and shared his soft kiss, inhaling trying to fight with my mixed feelings of pain and pleasure. Phen picked me up in his arms and carried me to the bed , laying me down carefully he gently pushed my thighs apart and his mouth was on me , his fingers sliding my clit from it's hood as his tongue swirled and pressed gently against it, I cried out as my hands gripped at the soft bedding beneath us ..my back arching I was lost in a haze of so many mixed emotions as my body lost all control giving myself to my husband who gladly took from me.  Waves of deep euphoria darted through my soul as I trembled and bucked, his tongue and his hands bringing me to the edge as I cried out, my taste on his lips . As I lay beneath him breathless , heart racing , Phens mouth again found mine as he whispered “I Love You” . 

I lay silent, thoughts running through my head , the cheeks of my skin feeling tender where the belt had hit. I felt like I had been disgraced and although I had just had a shower I needed to take another one. I felt ashamed like I had been so bad to have warranted a belt.

The last time I was ever hit was by my step dad when I dared to back chat him and he took his belt to me.  That day I felt so vulnerable and didn't ever want the belt again as he had accidently caught my skin with his metal buckle and it bruised me. I realised what I was feeling was fear, fear of ever disobeying Pheonix again. Maybe he was right , maybe it was for us both that he did it and yes I did go against my vows but ……..I pushed myself up from the bed, Pheonix stood up too and as I went to walk away, I felt his arms wrap around my waist and pull me to him. He was stood behind me. He Lowered his head to the side of my neck and whispered, “Sorry Ame, baby I am SO sorry”, I was cold as I pushed his hands from my waist ..Pausing … I replied , ” Me too!”. I walked into the bathroom and for the first time in 5 years I turned the lock, leaving Pheonix outside.

I stepped into the shower and as I tilted my head upwards to feel the water on my face I began to cry.  I wasn't sure I could do this anymore, for the last few years having to cope with not knowing how he would be from one day to the next, sometimes one minute to the next . Yes he was funny , loving and by god did I love him, I loved him so much it hurt , but this today?  something had changed.

I stepped from the shower and patting my face softly with the towel I looked at my reflection in the mirror, my eyes were a little puffy so I took up a sponge and pressed cold water to my eyes, it was soothing and helped. Unlocking the door I entered the bedroom and was relieved to find Phen wasn't there. Quickly dressing I slipped the keys to my jeep into my pocket and slipped away through the front door, got into my jeep and drove off our small ranch.

It was almost dark when I arrived at the bar not far from where I shared my home with my husband, I had earlier driven to a local lake and sat on the edge just paddling my feet in the cool water. I had watched people some couples and some alone come and go from the lake and also watched two young children flying kites with their parents having alot of fun in the sunshine.  The flowers were beautiful and many butterflies and bee's had put in an appearance going about their day almost carefree.  I felt at peace with myself but as I watched couples holding hands and kissing I missed the man I loved. Then the awful reminder of his belt hitting my skin made me angry. I wanted to scream at him , throw something at him , tell him how dare he do that to me. That's when I decided to head to the bar, my thoughts now reckless.

I stepped through the doors and made my way over to the bar and took a seat on a stool. The bar tender was a young man and as he took my request for a Rum & Coke he smiled  and politely asked if I wanted some ice. 

Taking my drink I sat and swallowed the cool liquid, my thoughts drifted back to Pheonix and I started to feel a little guilty. I knew he would be angry with me but I needed to think. Two men approached me , one at either side of me , one was a little plump and he was unshaven and looked like he had just come from some ranch or farm, his hands still dirty. The Other was slightly taller, also dirty and he was chewing on something and as he spoke he had an accent I didnt recognise, “Now then , what's a fine looking gal like you doing all alone in a place like this?” I looked at him and trying to be polite I just replied, “The same as you sir, taking a drink”.

“well allow me to get you another lil lady” , He waved the young bar tender over, “I'll and my friend here will have a double scotch and whatever this lil lady here is drinking”[/i].

I knew I shouldn't but I wanted to be drunk, I wanted to forget things so I gladly accepted his drink and drunk it one go, damn my throat burned and my chest felt warm.

“Whoah there tiger! You were thirsty huh?”, The Small plump guy slipped his hand to the small of my back steadying me as I swayed a little. He too had an accent I didn't recognise. Both men were laughing a little.

“Here Get this lil lady another drink, in fact make it three, I think we have a thirsty one here” , the taller of the two waved to the young bar tender.

“Mr I don't think you should be doing that , she looks like she has already had enough”, The Young bar tender spoke.

“GET THE DAMN DRINKS BOY! My money is good enough… now go! We only just got started here!”

I was starting to feel worse for wear and becoming very unstable on my feet but my two new friends helped me each time I struggled. I was giggling and believed my new friends to be good people.  Then the room started to spin and as I leaned over grabbing for the taller of the men to stop myself from falling,  I mumbled hoarsely , ” UrgghhhhhI think I'm going to be sick”.  the two men wrapped around each side of me,  helped me outside.

I leaned over a drain sink, both men holding me and I vomited. “uhhhhh ohh god I feel rough I sh should gu home”.

“Whoah lil lady not so fast , we only just starting to get to know you”, The taller man spoke, his hand reached down ,gripped my breast hard making me wince.

“ohh god ..please don't , what are you doing” , I questioned

“HAHA Hear that ERIC , She wants to know what you are doing” , The plump man spoke , and as he did he pulled my head back by my hair. I was about to scream when he put his hand over my mouth. My heart now racing started bringing me out of my drunken state and I began to panic and struggle.

I felt my skirt being pushed up my thigh, then I felt some cold steel against my skin , Oh god he had a knife! , I struggled some more and as I did I felt the cool steel dig into and slide across my thigh cutting me. Eric hissed  , his voice no longer friendly , “LISTEN BITCH! You struggle some more this ere blade is going to cut more than your thigh , OK !” I stared at him , my head throbbing , his friend still had my mouth covered , he continued, “OK BITCH!!” His friend gripping my hair nodded my head forward roughly making me nod a yes , laughing as he did.

The knife pressed against my thigh moved up and cut at the sides of my panties , OH GOD NO , what were they doing .. I struggled some more, causing the plump man to pull my head right back making me stand on my tiptoes and arch my back  , my cries for help were muffled against his hand.
Then as I felt the cool air hit my skin i realised Eric had cut my pants off … I kicked out trying to get both men off me , but it was no use, they were stronger than me . Eric grabbed my legs and both men started to carry me to the back of the building where it was isolated. Tears down my face now as I began to fear for my life , my thigh trickling with blood.

“HEY YOU!! LET THE LADY GO!”, I heard the voice of the young bar tender, he was stood holding a gun pointing it at the two men as he stepped from the shadows.

Eric spoke “OH Come on Son , we just want a lil fun wit the lady here, you can join us and stick your cock in her too, I bet her pussy is nice and tight, wouldn't you like that huh?”

“I'M WARNING YOU MR , ONE MORE WORD AND THIS GUN IS GOING TO BE MAKING AN HOLE IN YOUR CHEST, I SAID LET THE LADY GO!” The bar tender waved his gun slowly from side to side, first at Eric, then to his mate.

“I'D DO WHAT THE MAN SAYS!!” , it was a voice I recognised, it was Pheonix!, “YA SEE THAT LIL LADY IS MY WIFE AND YOU LAY ONE MORE FINGER ON HER AND I'LL SHOOT YOU MYSELF”!

Both men released me and I fell to the floor, rushing to my feet ,pulling my skirt back down. Pheonix eyes were cold and he had that look on his face, he wanted to kill them, he strode past me, dismissing me and made his way to Eric, Eric raised his knife to Pheonix, and as a struggle began , time seemed to freeze , it all happened so quickly , Pheonix took the knife from Eric and the next thing Eric was laid on the floor, he was silent as blood oozed from him where Pheonix had stuck the knife in him. He was dying.

The plump man now pleading for his life as Pheonix reigned blow after blow upon him. I screamed and rushed over to Pheonix and stood in front of him..”NO PHEN .. NOOO .. PLEASE LETS JUST GO , YOU ARE GOING TO GET INTO TROUBLE”!. Pheonix expression was blank, his breathing heavy, his heart was pounding so hard I could almost hear it. Gripping his arm I pulled at him, Pheonix kicked the plump man as I pulled him away, then looking into his eyes, I saw him acknowledge that It was me speaking, he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close.

The young bar tender was now at Erics head stemming the blood flow and on his phone calling for an ambulance, The plump guy was just rolling on the floor he was in alot of pain and I could see his arm was broken. His mouth and eye bleeding badly where Pheonix had caught him.

All we could do now was wait for the police and ambulance to arrive.

 

[Anonymous]

Really, powerful emotional writing.

Peace

Fixxgiggle

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[Amethyst]

The sun was beginning to set over the small scenic pond as both sat there in silence . The air was cool and fresh and the wind whispered through the leafs on the trees as they danced softly.

All was calm and both sat deep in thought not a word between them.  Months had passed since the dreadful incident at the bar , but the nightmares were still real enough to disturb Ame's sleep. Things had shifted between the couple and both were showing signs of the unwelcome unrest that stirred within them.

Pheonix stepped up to his feet with a deep sigh, turning he strode through the swing door, letting it swing back hard behind him as he entered the ranch house. Ame remained seated outside alone looking up just briefly as the man she loved stepped inside.

A few minutes passed and Pheonix stepped back out onto the porch ..he was holding his rucksack and it looked as if he was going on a journey. Ame looked up at him an inquisitive look on her face.

Pheonix spoke , “it's no good Ame , I can't do this anymore I need to get out of here for a while , you won't open up to me and I can't do this anymore !! ” , Ame didn't speak , she didn't try to stop him , she had become cold and even though deep down Pheonix was hoping she would beg him to stay she still didn't move nor say a word.  Pheonix hissed low , his words unheard and muffled as he threw his rucksack into the back of his truck and drove off .  Ame watched as the vehicle vanished out of sight her stomach jumped and turned …a dull ache screamed through her core and she knew she couldn't lose the man she loved.

[Amethyst]

She stepped through the doors of the old saloon bar ..the room was full , a river of cowboy hats and dim lights filled the air.
She made her way across the back wall and found a seat at the far end of the bar and ordered a beer from the barman who broke from a conversation he was having to serve her.
She could barely see him up on the stage , but she could hear that familiar voice , the way he played that guitar , a dull ache swept through her core and she felt nauseas
She was tended to by the barman who served her a nice ice cold bottle of beer, whispering a quiet “thank you ” , she paid the man and turned her focus back to the stage.
She suddenly felt sick a surge of nerves swept through her and she began questioning if she should have come here at all, still she wasn't about to leave , not now .. not ever .. she shifted in her seat a little as his voice filled the room and she closed her eyes absorbing him . 

Time seemed lost and as she opened her eyes the crowd had thinned and she could see him clearly now, she took in the sight of him as her stomach jumped in tense little waves , she wanted to turn and leave but as she stepped up to her feet he looked up and caught sight of her , his voice broke mid song as he whispered 'Ame' , the crowd turned and looked at her stood there and she wanted to bolt out the door but she was stuck ..froze to the spot . Pheonix put his guitar down and started to make his way over to her ,it was then and only then that she could move and she rushed out through the saloon doors.
 

[Amethyst]

Damn might need to think of where this story is actually going ..its been so long since I was here last !

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