I think you can feel both pleasure and pain on the same day. Let me take you back to a girl just 18, her boyfirend who is into bikes
her brothers into them, she wants not to be a passenger anymore, she wants to drive one and wants her own one, so after a few months of learning how to drive one, she goes and get her own bike, Then one sunday morning its time for her to take the bike on the road her boyfirend tells her that he will lend the way and she is to stay about 100y behind him so of they go. The pleasure of knowing that she is doing this going round bends up and down hills you stop and talk about what you have just did and pleasure you get from driving 30km, he tell you its time to go back and to watch out for that cross roads on way back that some people
do not stop where they should stop you say ok and move off as you go you say to yourself im doing this,, this is my bike thats my boyfirend up the road im so happy then a car comes out of cross roads and hits him the pain i feel that day i would not wish it on anyone