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[Eidamir]

There shouldn't be any limits. I just don't know, if too many songs could cause any troubles with AChat, just try it.

I played a bit with the customization of music in achat for a time and I found just one limitation. Don't remember exactly which one was, it was a long time ago, but I think you can't use space in the file names.
You can, for example, use file1.ogg but if you use file 1.ogg achat won't play it.

Kisses

Zoë

[Eidamir]

You were the first to see through my eyes
You looked into my soul and saw the truth.
The trouth that not even myself have really discovered yet.
You gave me your time.
You gave me your shoulder.
You gave me countless words of cheer and advice.
You helped me more than you can ever imagine.
Now you're gone.
I miss you.
My mind is still a mess and I'm still trying to go out of the darkness.
Sometimes I think I did it, but then, I see something, I hear something, I talk to someone and all that sadness is back.
The tears are back.
Will it ever end?
A hug.
A kiss.
An ear.
That is what I miss the most.
Hope things are better there than they are in here.
Hope to hear from you again someday.

Zoë, always fighting the darkness

[Eidamir]

Here I am again bringing you the almost final version of the lyric I told you about in my last post. This time I will post both the translated alongside with the original words.

Never wanted this to happen | Nunca quise que esto pasara
Never wanted to end like this | Nunca quise que terminara así
It's so hard not knowing what we are | Es tan difícil no saber lo que somos
                           It's so hard to find the truth | Es tan difícil descubrir la verdad

Could you look me in the eyes | Podrías mirarme a los ojos
Could you look beyond | Podrías ver más allá
Could you see what I feel | Podías ver lo que siento
Could you see who I am | Podrías ver quién soy yo

If you only knew what you are to me | Si tan sólo suprieras lo que sos para mí
If you only saw all mi tears | Si tan sólo vieras todas mis lágrimas
It's so hard not knowing what I am | Es tan difícil no saber lo que soy
It's so hard to find the truth | Es tan difícil descubrir la verdad

Could you look me in the eyes | Podrías mirarme a los ojos
Could you look beyond | Podrías ver más allá
Could you see what I feel | Podías ver lo que siento
Could you see what I am | Podrías ver lo que soy

I would never understand why is it like this | Nunca entenderé por qué es así
I would never understand how to do it | Nunca entenderé cómo hacerlo

Could you look me in the eyes | Podrías mirarme a los ojos
Could you look beyond | Podrías ver más allá
Could you see what I feel | Podías ver lo que siento
Could you see what you are | Podrías ver lo que sos
Could you kill me again | Podrías matarme de nuevo
Could you break the silence | Podrías romper el silencio
Could you leave the torment | Podrías dejar el tormento
Could you look at me again | Podrías mirarme otra vez
Could you see who I am | Podrías ver quién soy yo
Could you see what I am | Podrías ver lo que soy yo

Zoë, walking out of the darkness

[Eidamir]

I promised someone I would share this, so here I am.
It's not finished yet, it's still a work in progress, but I think it's ready to be posted here.
The words are originally writen in spanish, but I'm making a translation for this world.
It is a song, it is MY song.
It has been more than 10 years since the last time I wrote a song, but it was easier than I expected.
Still need to be worked, but it is a nice start.

Never wanted this to happen
Never wanted to end like this
It's so hard not knowing what we are
It's so hard to find the truth

Could you look me in the eyes?
Could you look beyond?
COuld you see what I feel?
Could you see what I am?

If you knew what you are to me
If you saw mi tears.
It's so hard not knowing what I am
It's so hard to find the truth

Could you look me in the eyes?
Could you look beyond?
COuld you see what I feel?
Could you see what I am?

I would never understand why is it like this
I would never understand how to do it

Could you look me in the eyes?
Could you look beyond?
COuld you see what I feel?
Could you see what I am?
Could you kill me again?
Could you break the silence?
Could you leave the torment?
Could you see me again?

Zoë, still fighting the darkness

[Eidamir]

If I don't sing what I feel
I'm going to die inside.
I have to shout at the winds until I burst
although there will only be time left in my place.

If I want I touch my soul
for my flesh is nothing anymore.
I have to merge what is left of me with the awakening
Even if my mouth is rotting to keep quiet.

I'm already wanting it
I'm already becoming song
mud maybe …
And this is my bark
where the axe will hit
where the river will dry to silence.

The moments are already hurrying me
And my temple is a lament.
My brain spits out the end of the history
of the beginning that maybe will resume.

If I want I touch my soul
for my flesh is nothing.
I have to merge what is left of me with the awakening
Even if my mouth is rotting to keep quiet.

I'm already wanting it
I'm already becoming song
mud maybe …

And this is my bark
where the axe will hit
where the river will dry to silence.

https://youtu.be/A8W5FI9UwfQ

Again, another soul write what I feel better than I could have ever done it.
This time I bring to you a song originally written by a great local artist which we lost two years ago.
This version is from the band of a former techer of mine and is the version that most deeply reaches into my soul.

Zoë, trying to walk out of the darkness

[Eidamir]

I thought I saw a winter in your face.
It looks smooth and with a little gray tone.
Don't close your electric eyes to the sun
and do not be harassed to commit the same sin.

I thought I am a bug to your eyes,
I don't realy care what you say about me,
Don't close your electric eyes to the sun
and do not force yourself to die on your sins.

I thought I was reading hell between us.
The end feels so close and far.
Don't close your electric eyes to the sun
and do not punish to get away from your sins.

https://youtu.be/oBDjLk5Sf5U

This are not my words, but they express what I feel about HER better than I could. Although she is not here and will never read this lines, this lines are for her.

But for YOU, that know who I am talking about, for YOU that are always here giving me your shoulder and your ears.
I love you,
I miss you,
I need you.

Zoë, walking in darkness.

[Eidamir]

It is done.
Not as I would have liked to.
And it didn't turned out well.
But it didn't turned out bad either.
Now it's time.
It's time to go.
It's time to die.
Because there is no other way to be reborn anew other than to die.
And it's time for me to die and become what I really am.

Zoë, always walking in dreams.

[Eidamir]

Following my heart
Following the songlines
Following you
You might not understand why
I will try to find courage to tell you
You might don't want me to talk to you anymore
But I need to do it
I need to take this out of my chest before it is too late
I have to do it before it kills me
What will happen, will happen
It could hurt, yes, but if I don't do it, it will kill me
It is time, I'm getting ready…
For whatever may happen afterwards.

Zoë

[Eidamir]

Well, here I am again, after a long absence.
My last post, which was the real coming back to the songlines post, was recieved with joy and a close friend of mine said she misses me in forum.
For that reason, I will try to find time to post my thoughts… never posted too much, and probably will not now, but from time to time, I might slip a pice of my heart in here.
I am not in my best moment right now, those who are close to me know what I'm going through, but I have found a refugee in this world, I have found someone who helps me to keep going, to stay true to who I am.
As I said, I am not in my best moment… but truth is, as one of my favorites song praises:

“All of my songs can only be composed of the greatest of pains
Every single verse can only be born of the greatest of wishes”

Hope this new year finds you well and happy.
Kisses to all

Zoë
Still walking between worlds

[Eidamir]

Is it sadness what I saw in her eyes?
I just aproched to say I will go out for a few minutes…
Her eyes… that was saddness?
I asked her if everything was ok.
She answered that she was just concentrated…
Is that the truth?
I came back and saw she still has the same look.
There is saddness in there.
How can I help her?
She wouldn't let me…
She wouldn't talk…
No matter, I will always be there nevertheless.

[Eidamir]

Hello TART4CUS
The game should run without issues in that setup.
I have an i3, 24 gig of ram and an nVidia GT740 and never experienced any of the issues you have.
Which operating system are you using? I use win7, so maybe it's the OS that makes it buggy.
A sfor the config of the nVidia panel, I use the option with the slide bar in quality (all the way to the right).
Try updating the nVidia drivers and doing a clean install of them and of the game if you haven't done so yet.

Good luck.

Zoë

[Eidamir]

Yep, it is a bug that is around for so long… I wonder if the programmers are aware of this… it could be hard to detect the issue because it seems to be compleatly random.
This kind of things are hard to solve because if it don't happen you can't know for sure if it's fixed or not, until it happens again.

Hope the will fix it soon, though.

Kisses

Zoë

[Eidamir]

Hello there, Findulas.
Welcome to the forum and achat!
I too was a big fan of Tolkien some time ago, now, I still like it a lot, but I am no longer a fan of anyworld, or better to say I am a fan of all worlds.

A bit of correction about the Silmarillion… it was not writen by his son, it was writen by J.R.R Tolkien himself, but he never finished working on it. Christopher took JRR work and compiled it into a more or less coherent book.
It's not an easy reading. The Hobbit and The Rings trilogy are as they were intended by JRR.
The Silmarillion is the best his soon could make with the notes and scratchs of the stories JRR was working on.

BTW, my fav character is Eowyn… she confronted the Nazgûl lord alone!

Well, that's all.
Hope you don't mind me stepping into your topic.

Hugs

Zoë

[Eidamir]

This is me in another game, exploring the D'ni island Ae'gura' in the Great Cavern

It is an old game, but it is still on, and I always loved exploration and puzzle games.
I was very excited to see that it is still on-line, although the cavern is pretty empty these days.

[Eidamir]

Great news, indeed.
I'm glad to hear that she's still the same Kait that makes us smile and hope she can fly back home soon.

Thanks, Andrea, for sharing her message and for keeping us updated on her condition.

Zoë

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